It’s the New Year! Hello 2013! In life there is always a new chapter to begin again, we have finished 366 pages of 2012 and we are back to page 1 in another story which is called 2013. For the New Year, I want to breathe in fresh air and start a new experience, be who I am yet be different at the same time. I used to be in a very dark place and I’m still trying to dig myself out of it. I’m trying to mend these bruises I got and be sober enough to mend the scars that was left.
I’m trying to clear my mind
I told you to give me time
But you wouldn’t wait
And I was a little too late
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Letting you hang on a thread
While I tried to clear my head
I could’ve said yes but I’m not sober
Now you’re walking away saying it’s over
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Do you know what it feels like?
Not being able to touch the ground
Feel as if you’re about to break down
I’m about to set off like a bomb
That’s ready to explode
I’m in the middle of a disaster
While you were waiting
For me to get myself together
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We were both at the wrong moment
I’m still picking up the pieces
Of my ticking heart
I’m still trying to find them
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My head is not in a right place
I’m still covered in bruises
I’m not sober enough to mend
Not balanced to stand on my own
*******
Do you know what it feels like?
Not being able to touch the ground
Feel as if you’re about to break down
I’m about to set off like a bomb
That’s ready to explode
I’m in the middle of a disaster
Trying to steer clear of the rocks falling
I’m not yet sober to get myself together
But I should’ve known you won’t wait
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I’m trying to keep myself together
Try to make myself seem stronger
You’re tired of hanging on a thin line
While I’m busy trying to pick myself up
I’m not balance to stand on my own
Because I’m still not sober
*******
My emotions are unstable
I’m trying to get rid of these voices
Trying to heal my bruises
I’m still finding my pieces
Of what was left of me…
