I hate putting myself in the position to break, its hard to fall when you’re only knee deep in.
I’m just chasing fools gold,
Thinking I’ll be getting somewhere,
I’m just going in circles
Thinking something is going to change
It’s hard enough to let go
It isn’t something you need to know
How much trouble I’d get myself into
I don’t want to open my heart again
They say you can always learn from the pain
But I’ve wasted so much time before
Expecting it to be something more
Only to have empty conversations
And uninvited reservations
I’m tired of having to be the one to fall
The walls were burned down
And I’m building them back up
Don’t you see I don’t want to lose again?
Lessons were learned from the last time
I won’t be stupid to fall for the same lines
And I won’t say that you’ll be better
Because “yes” will only leave me paralyzed
I know what this feeling is
Can you feel the pressure that’s crushing my lungs?
I wish I was just numb
It’s the same emotion over and over again
But the situation is never fair
Even if it’s going to be different
Will I believe it?
