I never know where to start
Because once I try to speak
The words get lost in my train of thought
Afraid to make its way back to me
So I sit there quietly
Trying my best to say something -anything really
But I start to see flashes
Of what he did to me
Now I’m choking on the air he used against me
I’m pinned onto the guilt he gave me
Tears start to stream, unable to keep it together
But I’m still quiet, even my sobs have been silenced