I still don’t know how to be an adult (according to the internet)

There are a lot of things you realize during your 27th year—rent also means bills, you have to make appointments to meet friends, and by 25 you should be getting pap smears. The last one took an awkward conversation with my mother to realize. But they all had two things in common—time and money, two …

I’m trying to romanticize my life

Rather than new year resolutions, I decided to create new year revisions. Earlier this year, I dubbed 2022 as✨ my renaissance. ✨ Yes, it’s weird but if I view my life as a movie or the second act of a coming of age story then I might actually start liking it. So, I thought: “why …

Do not burn your house down

I visited my therapist today. He said something peculiar after I droned on and on about how I hate the scars imprinted on my skin, the lines weaving their way around my waist and stomach. For half an hour; he listened, nodding along as I told stories about how I refuse to live inside this …

I’ve Seen This Film Before

My friends never liked you and I can’t blame them. They were happy when I finally got you out of my system. Unfriended, blocked, and deleted. If they knew you crossed my mind once again, there’ll be an intervention. I can hear their nagging types on their keyboard until our chat boxes are filled with …

The Break-Up Conversation

This is the break-up conversation we never had. I am not good with break-ups. Whether I’m the one being dumped or doing the break-up, the conversation surrounding it is not that easy. Most of the time, I’d wait for one of us to bring it up then accept whatever happens –then prepare my Taylor Swift …

Thank You For A Sign

There was a flower resting outside my window. The wind blew fallen leaves and petal from towns away. One managed to stay whole, as pretty as it first bloomed, through the long journey while its friends and twigs withered with the breeze. I’d like to think it’s a gift from you. A sign I desperately …

Sincerely, Future Me

Dear 6-year-old me, There are a lot of things I want to tell you. Many of which will make you confused, slightly shocked, and reassured. You are small with big dreams that do not make sense to anyone else except for you. I wish I still had your energy, optimism, and charming innocence. Sure, you …

Even In This Stillness Life Goes On (Happy Birthday)

“Streets erased of footprints I lie here, fallen to the ground. Time goes by on its own without a single apology” (Life Goes On, BTS) Saying 2020 is a shit show would be an understatement. January gave us hope that maybe the next few months would bless us yet here we are in November, wondering where …