Afraid to be your reason

My biggest fear in a relationship is someone giving up everything for me. Their identity, dreams, friends, and create this new life around me. I am afraid they would slowly brew resentment, listing down regrets and what-ifs they forgot to consider. I’m afraid when the days are silent, they create scenarios of decisions they never …

Hello & Goodbye Blue

Hello, white sand beaches and crystal blue waters Framing a beautiful view Sadly, I never fully appreciated The landscapes and photographic Aesthetics in front of me Because I was too busy Wondering and Carelessly daydreaming about you By the way, I like your eyes Especially when you smile By the way, it was easy Talking …

2019 Life Maps and Vision Boards

Half of my 2018 were dark times. Despite avoiding a breakdown I was able to reflect on both my past and present emotional state. It wasn’t fun I can tell you that however, it was necessary for me to avoid the path of self-destruction. For 2019, I am more motivated than ever! Of course, I …

October Goals: Finding Passion and a little bit of happy

At the beginning of this year, I have shared my journey on self-improvement and mental health but it was only last month where I took it seriously. Sure, I was drowning myself in motivational articles, podcasts, and searching through the self-help section but it can only do so much. Instead of helping me improve myself, …

More Thought Bubbles

Thoughts have resurfaced They continue to linger Each thought left a remnant of my sanity, self-esteem, and self-worth. when I thought I have a garden to flourish my emotions these thoughts resurface revealing ruins each day passes some moments are different I continue to garden despite the rubble and cracks I’m afraid Because these thoughts …

What Makes Us Good?

I never knew how to answer this question: “Am I a good person?” This would lead me down a rabbit hole Of confusing questions and painful contemplation I would need to review my script of lies Maybe there’s a way I can revise the truth I can weigh in both the bad and the good …

The Literary Trope I Never Loved

An ambiance of witty jokes and sarcastic banter Of obscure pop culture references, Classic novels to unknown authors, And movies directed by old skinny white men Who wears the word “genius” like a badge, Nothing is slow, everything is spinning A montage of sepia-toned laughter And shots of coffee, vodka, and cigarettes Fits into one …

Dear Kenneth, I Love You

Our first conversation was through text We were sitting in the same room Without the “will he or will he not reply” anxiety I was talking while you were typing Because you were unable to speak You were sweet but kind of impulsive You met me out of recommendation After a wisdom tooth extraction For …